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Less of Me

I posted yesterday about how Christ chose to be less and became more because of that. I briefly discussed how I need to become less so that Christ can help me become more. I want to continue that conversation today.

It says in the scriptures that the natural man is an enemy to God. I would sometimes think of this and think that I wasn’t so bad. I thought that I don’t really have an inclination to do evil so how can that be an enemy to God? The more I learn of myself and God, the more I learn that the natural man is an enemy to God.

I am not a bad person. I enjoy helping others and being friendly and understanding. However, I am also very selfish. I want recognition, praise, love, admiration, and the feeling of being wanted. Those are things we all want. They are natural. So… how do those things make us an enemy to God?

The more we seek for these natural desires, the farther we stray from the desires God wants us to have. God wants us to love others.

Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Charity never faileth.

(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

None of those things are natural. I don’t want to bear all things. I do seek my own. I am easily provoked. And I fail all the time.

The great thing is that I don’t have to be like this. I don’t have to keep my natural desires and inclinations. I can choose to go to Christ and allow Him to change me. I can choose to be less of me so that I can become more of Him.

So my goal is to become less of myself in order to become more of Christ, until I find myself by becoming lost in Him.


A Change of Heart

It seems strange when you find yourself comforting, sympathizing with and just plain loving someone that at one point you felt you hated.

I am not naturally a very forgiving person. I believe in justice far more than I should, and I am a skeptic of the benefits of mercy.

But I am trying to change. I am trying to be better and forgive more and let go of past pain. I am trying to see things from another’s perspective and assume that everyone is doing their best.

Sometimes I feel like I am getting better and sometimes I don’t. But this weekend I was able to see a great change in me that I never thought would happen.

I hugged and comforted someone who basically tortured me when I was a child. They weren’t always mean to me, but I still have memories that haunt me of times I spent with them. And yet, as I held them and spoke kind words, I felt none of the anger I used to feel towards them. I just felt love.

If that’s not a change of heart, I don’t know what is.

Christ is real. The atonement is real. And it can really change us completely. I’m not who I used to be, but I am on my way to becoming who I want to be. I know it wouldn’t be possible alone, but with God all things are possible.

Looking Out

I’ve been pretty depressed lately and just thinking about all the things I want to do but can’t and things I wish I could do better. Anyway, I finally got to the point where I decided that I can either retreat into myself or reach out to others. I have gone through major depression before and I have been suicidal in the past. During those times, I decided to retreat into myself. I didn’t see any hope and I was tired of trying so I just stopped.

This time, I don’t want to do that again. I know that things may never change and I know that things probably aren’t going to get any easier at least for a while, but I think it will be worth it. If I can reach out instead of retreating into myself, maybe it will make a difference- not a difference in the world, but a difference in me.

I have a lot going for me right now. I have a lot to be grateful for. And even though I feel like I need more help than most people around me, if I find ways to help people around me maybe it will help me too. So even though it will be hard, I’m going to try as much as possible to reach out to others and find ways to serve them. And hopefully in the process, I’ll be serving myself better as well.

Getting to Heaven is Not our Purpose

Have you ever heard someone say that they want to get to heaven or they want to help you get to heaven?

I have been thinking about this a lot lately and I have realized that when we say that we are completely missing our purpose. Our purpose is not to get to heaven. I mean, think about it… if our purpose was to get to heaven, why did we come to Earth? We were already in heaven before we came here. If our purpose was just to get back, then this life is just a painful scab meant to weed out the unworthy.

I do not and cannot believe that God made this world for the purpose of reducing His kingdom. I cannot believe that He made this life to only be a test where those who passed could return to live with Him and anyone else would suffer for the rest of eternity. No, God’s purpose in sending us here and our purpose in coming here is much bigger than simply going back. We are not here to get back to heaven.

We are here to become something greater than we could have ever become when we lived with God before this life. And if the difference between what we were and what we can become wasn’t so drastic, God would not have put us through this earthly existence. God sent us here not to prove ourselves, but to become better. We can learn things from the pains and weaknesses and burdens of life that we could not learn in heaven when those things did not exist to us.

When God decided to make the Earth and create bodies for our spirits, He knew that there would be some who would be lost. He knew that it wouldn’t be a perfect world where we would all learn what we needed to and come back to heavenly bliss. But because He could see how much of a difference our progress here would make for us, He decided to allow us to come to Earth despite the cost. It wasn’t that He loved those who would fail any less, but He loved us all as a whole more.

God gave us this Earth and this life because He believes in us. He loves us and wants us to become better than we ever dreamed we could be. Yes, He wants us to return to live with Him. But He wants us to get the most out of life while we are here. Our purpose was not to get to heaven, but rather to get to Earth. Our purpose was not to return to live with God, but rather to become one with God. We are here to become like Him so that when we return to live with Him our time here will not have been in vain.

When we forget about getting back to God and instead focus on becoming like Him, life takes on the meaning it is supposed to have. Life is not a test. Tests don’t teach you, they evaluate you. We are not here to have the valiant separated from the undeserving. We were all valiant and we were all deserving. We came here to learn, to become more valiant, to become the beings that God sees in us.

Life is a classroom with the most loving teacher in existence. But if we only focus on passing the class, we miss the joy and knowledge of learning the most precious truths available to us.

25 before 25

I’ve been seeing a lot of these lists lately and I think they’re pretty cool so I decided to do one too.

These are 25 things I want to do before I turn 25 years old:

  1. Help an old lady cross the street
  2. Take cookies to a neighbor
  3. Make someone’s day
  4. Learn 10 words in a new language
  5.  Write a letter to myself with my non-dominant hand
  6. Send a note of encouragement to someone in need
  7. Read the entire Bible
  8. Draw a self-portrait
  9. Bake a loaf of bread
  10. Serve a meal at a homeless shelter/ buy someone a meal
  11. Make a series of pictures about safe driving
  12. Apologize to everyone I’ve ever hurt
  13. Go to a temple I’ve never been to before
  14. Volunteer at a hospital/ care facility
  15. Surprise someone in a good way
  16. Try a food I’ve never had before
  17. Leave a penny on the floor heads side up
  18. Leave positive notes in public places
  19. Make a costume out of cardboard
  20. Learn as much as I can about one of my ancestors
  21. Go to a natural wonder
  22. Say I love you to my parents without them saying it first
  23. Gather at least one picture of everyone in my family
  24. Write a letter to all the people that positively changed my life
  25. Come up with a specific motto on how I want to live my life